Well...it's somewhat hard to put into words. I just get this overall sense of comfort from knowing that the people I'm with accept me in a way that I've never been able to accept myself.
[And that, overall, she hasn't been accepted by anyone else prior.]
It's strange, really. Being guarded can become so instinctual that you don't realize when you've let it down, at first.
[He isn't wrong, and it's a nice thing to say, but really, she does wish that she was feared and respected just a bit more. What a lovely prospect!]
Don't lose heart! You'll absolutely get there, it just takes time, and maybe a bit of proactive behavior! It's so easy to fall into the trap of being a wallflower, I know this quite well. And in the meantime, I'm always available to talk!
[Is this...a flirt? No, probably not. Just information, for, uh...purposes? Belladonna, being predictably herself, decides not to assume any untoward intentions.]
Yes, I am!
[Technically speaking. She doesn't really think to say that she is, despite her nature, for all intents and purposes emotionally unavailable.]
[Shouldn't this be a bit of an obvious sort of answer? Belladonna pauses, but she's, well, far too kind for her own good, and continues to indulge the line of questioning.]
It's rather dangerous down here, after all! There's all manner of conflict, and from what I've heard, anyone can vanish at any time without so much as a warning. These aren't particularly romantic circumstances...I think they'd cause for more heartache than anything else.
i guess the only thing we can do is take our chances and hold on dear to what we have here and not let go... everything feels so fleeting when we put it like that...
[And it really makes her think, her brow knitting. If all of this is going to end, one way or another, and she'll ultimately end up back home without being able to see anyone here ever again, she shouldn't take that for granted.]
I think that...even though it can be frightening, you should try and reach out to whoever you can. You never know what kind of relationship you might build!
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[And that, overall, she hasn't been accepted by anyone else prior.]
It's strange, really. Being guarded can become so instinctual that you don't realize when you've let it down, at first.
@nakura (LOOK, HE'S OFF ANON)
this is CHEATING
[Nakura over here asking the hard questions.]
I suppose you could say that before you know it, you'll be talking candidly in a way you normally wouldn't dare. Does that make sense?
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i haven't had such luck.
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[He isn't wrong, and it's a nice thing to say, but really, she does wish that she was feared and respected just a bit more. What a lovely prospect!]
Don't lose heart! You'll absolutely get there, it just takes time, and maybe a bit of proactive behavior! It's so easy to fall into the trap of being a wallflower, I know this quite well. And in the meantime, I'm always available to talk!
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last question, just for my own knowledge... you don't happen to be single, do you?
(Izaya is going to cry laughing. Send help. He loves painting Nakura as a pathetic man, so really, he's living his best life.)
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Yes, I am!
[Technically speaking. She doesn't really think to say that she is, despite her nature, for all intents and purposes emotionally unavailable.]
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(HA. HA. Fuck you, Nakura.)
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[Oh. Okay. That really was a question, then! Belladonna gives a bit of an awkward laugh that she hopes comes off as friendly.]
I'm flattered! I'm not so sure that dating anyone in Hell is a particularly wise idea, actually...
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It's rather dangerous down here, after all! There's all manner of conflict, and from what I've heard, anyone can vanish at any time without so much as a warning. These aren't particularly romantic circumstances...I think they'd cause for more heartache than anything else.
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(PATHETIC. God, Izaya even needs to take a breather.)
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[Oh, no, she's discouraged him! She should've thought more before she spoke! Bella backtracks, desperate not to get him to feel like he's that alone.]
But it's really important to have friends, even if those friendships might not last!
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[And it really makes her think, her brow knitting. If all of this is going to end, one way or another, and she'll ultimately end up back home without being able to see anyone here ever again, she shouldn't take that for granted.]
I think that...even though it can be frightening, you should try and reach out to whoever you can. You never know what kind of relationship you might build!
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thank you for listening to me. i'll come talk to you if i ever feel lonely.
(Too goddamn easy.)
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Wonderful! I'm so glad to hear it! You know just where to find me whenever you need! It really was lovely talking to you, Nakura!
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