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[There’s a nagging part of her that feels like she should say something, but really, there’s nothing to say. Their kisses do all the talking, the gentle touches that soothe her anxiety and reassure her she isn’t making a mistake, or rushing.

Her life here is not her life at home. Who she gets to be and who she gets to be with is her choice.

Belladonna can’t stop herself from laughing as she gets comfortable on his lap, legs straddling his sides. Cupping his face she kisses him sweetly, forehead leaning into his.

No freaking out, this time.]

(Plan aside, this is actually quite... Nice? He can tell Bella cares about him from the way she moves, the giggle she allows him to hear, and there's a moment in which he accidentally reminds himself of just how lonely he is. In a single month, Bella cared about him more than any other person has ever had, and instead of chastising him for his actions or growing restless around him with the full knowledge of what he's done, it's exactly the reason why Bella was attracted to him in the first place, of course, his manipulation aside.

It's more than he has ever had, considering the only person he considers a friend has only protected him from stabbing to look good in front of his infatuation, and years later completely ignoring his other stabbing incident, even when it made the news. Izaya can't be all present, he can't betray what he stands for. He'll love her as a human, someone whose life is full of color and possibility, and he reminds himself of just how delicious it is to have her as a pawn in his arsenal, who he'll love to observe grow.

What is this if not a leap in development?

Carefully, Izaya lays down to flip them in bed, trying his best not to break the kiss until it comes naturally to an end, and his lips are free to roam down until they reach the collar of her dress. Tentatively, his hands grip the ends of it, pulling it up to free her from the fabric.)

Edited 2021-06-14 01:37 (UTC)

[It's all very different once they've switched positions. Belladonna, of course, has always been the quiet type, a bit of a pushover, but fully relinquishing control to him in this way has her feeling a type of vulnerability that she's completely unused to.

She's glad, though, she thinks, that this is how it's happening. After he's had more than one opportunity to take advantage and showed that he wouldn't. As she looks up at him, Belladonna reaches up to brush the hair around his eyes, a gesture as tender-hearted as the rest of her.

As the dress starts to slide upward, she lifts her body to make the process easier, taking a steadying breath.]

(Soon, the dress is only a passing memory as it hits the mattress and Izaya takes in the view before him. Bella is just so petite, like if he were anything more than kind dealing with her, her body would break... But honestly, that is also the impression one would get with how skinny Izaya is - now on display as he removes his long sleeved shirt.

Now that that's out of the way, at least temporarily, Izaya can find his way to her breasts, kisses descending her chest as both a warning and a search for approval. Shall he have it, his tongue and lips attach to her nipple, sucking and nibbling as a hand moves to between her legs, teasing upon the fabric of her underwear.)

[Now this, this is new. Her eyes follow him as he makes his way down, not even having the chance to feel self-conscious of her her bare breasts before he's reached them. Belladonna lets loose a soft gasp at the new sensations that blossom out from her the sensitive skin. It's fine, she reminds herself, she can handle this. It's Izaya, and he's being so gentle and cautious...

And then his fingers slide over the soft center of her underwear and it feels like her whole body lights up at once. The gasp she lets out this time tapers into a startled moan, her hips pressing instinctively into his touch. Embarrassed at the instinctive reaction, she presses a hand over her mouth.

She should apologize--should she apologize? She isn't sure. But her throat is dry, and no words come out.]

(It's the muffling of her moans that makes him perk up from what he's been doing, his lips retreating from her breasts to press some gentle kisses onto her cheek and jaw, as to reassure her that it's okay to be startled, it's alright if she's louder than she had been.

She doesn't have to apologize - she's done nothing wrong, after all. He'll show her by sliding off her underwear, tentatively, and massaging her clit in delicate, slow circular motions. A little voice in his mind can't help but wonder if she's figured out she could do that while on aphro, but either way. He gets to see her get lost in pleasure.)

[She could have, or at least should have figured it out, but all temptations she may have had to take care of her own physical desires she certainly felt too ashamed to carry through with. When she feels Izaya's lips back at her face, she wants to look at him, to see his beautiful lashes and smile, but her eyes flutter closed when he touches her fully, skin on skin.

Belladonna's moans are more pronounced now, sharper, and she can feel her heart beating in her ears. Although she doesn't cover her face again, she does put a hand at his neck, thumb stroking his skin as her body begins to open up to him, wetting his fingers.]

(Being a virgin means Izaya has to take certain things slower than he already has, it means that he has to make sure he fits as to not hurt her when he finally enters her tiny body, so he's got a plan, of course. It looks like she's getting used to the touch, his fingers newfound wetness indicating that it's working - so he has a plan to deploy now.

He presses one last kiss to her cheek before he descends again, this time not stopping by her breasts on his trail of kisses, but to her pelvis, before he looks up for confirmation that this is okay - if she gives him, his tongue replaces his digits, while he slowly inserts his index finger inside, the movements delicate so to not hurt and to have her grow accustomed to the sensation.)

[She does, of course, give him the indication to go ahead that he's looking for. But that said, even though she should anticipate what he's about to do, when he does put his tongue to her clit and adds to that a sensation of a finger inside of her, she can't help the look of surprise on her face, the way she sucks in a breath.

There's having a general knowledge and understanding of how sex works from an educational perspective, and then there's what they don't talk about in school. What your mother doesn't explain to you when you're going through puberty. All of this is far beyond anything she may have expected...but that isn't to say she's complaining.

Belladonna whimpers, just slightly, her hands settling on her stomach, fingers tense--she doesn't know where to put them. And it's already overwhelming, she can hardly even watch him the way she wants to. And is it shameful, she wonders, to want to watch? Her body feels like it's growing outside of her own control, and without the added influence of aphrodisiacs, it's intimidating to succumb to it and trust he won't let her drown.]

(His tongue works with care, not to overwhelm her way too much and bring her too close to the edge before they've even gotten started. It's his finger that does the most work, and when he feels she's properly slippery and used to its presence, he'll add a second one, praying quietly that it doesn't hurt her.

His other hand rests around a thigh as he sucks in her clit, as to keep her in place in case her instinct has her moving too much, his thumb caressing the velvety skin as he inserts his fingers as far as they'll go. There's a question lurking in his mind, and he lets the tiny button slide between his teeth before he asks.)

Do you think you're ready? Does it hurt?

[He's good at what he does, too good, just like the rest of him, she thinks. So wonderfully terrible, so thoroughly full of awful blackness. There's something unraveling inside of her at the tip of his teeth, fingers, and tongue. Is that, perhaps, its own sort of darkness?

It is, after all, a sin. The kind of sin that had never been on her mind, before. Not even with Arriman. Her fantasies were always innocent, clinical, and so full of causing significant tragedy.

The sounds she's making, she doesn't recognize them as her own voice. Feels like the space she's in is somewhere altogether outside of the physical. At some point between more fingers testing the elasticity of her inner walls and her thighs being kept from bucking, her hands had come to grip at his hair; it isn't an action Belladonna recalls.]

No--it, it doesn't hurt.

[But is she ready? It's a question that she doesn't actually know the answer to. All she can do is follow the signals her body is sending her, the boiling of her blood in her veins. Belladonna gives him a nod.]

I trust you.

(But, like, she shouldn't. Izaya attacks her clit just a little bit more, just as a goodbye note before he ascends to remove his belt and unzip his pants. He needs to be a little bit harder than he is, but once again, he knows the best way to do things is with patience - so without removing his black boxers, Izaya takes her little hand into his to place his lips upon before directing it towards his erection.

Instructing the stroking movement, he lets out a groan as he closes his eyes to focus on what his body is asking of him.)

[It's a completely different experience, putting her hands on him, especially his most private area, regardless of it still being covered (which she assumes is a courtesy he's affording her). Her touch, unsurprisingly, is hesitant, but with his instruction she feels encouraged.

And then, at the sound of his pleasure, she feels a bit more emboldened. She glances up at his face, the way his eyes are closed, and gives in to an impulse that she'd ordinarily never even entertain.

Sliding forward to lower herself down on her knees, Belladonna leans in and plants a kiss on the form of the hardening shaft hidden behind his boxers.]

(The moment Belladonna becomes wholly predictable will most likely be the moment Izaya loses interest. Right now, however, she proves the complete opposite to him - that he hasn't gotten her all figured out yet. Isn't that just marvelous? A delightful myriad of possibilities unfolding from her own human core, even if she differs from what he categorizes as one, after all.

He fucking loves it. He simply adores being astounded and proved wrong, and what he thought would be a lot of him instructing and teaching has changed into a much more interesting game with how her warm breath caresses him under the fabric, lips teasing something he wouldn't even dare to imagine from Belladonna. Ah, he's obviously going to allow her to figure things out, a hand tucking some of her golden hair behind her ear. He's smiling silly for all the wrong reasons.)

Edited 2021-06-14 22:29 (UTC)

[In absolutely no uncertain terms, Belladonna doesn't know at all what she's doing. It was such an impulsive sort of action, and just before she begins to doubt herself again she feels his touch, and looks up to see his smiling face. The fact that there's something altogether sinister behind that smile? It makes her adore it even more.

With that propelling her forward, she takes a breath and continues to take her daring initiative. Her hands move to his hips, carefully hooking her fingers at the waistband of his underwear so she can pull it down his legs. Being face-to-face with male genitalia is, well, it's daunting, in a way she supposes it shouldn't be.

Still, she wraps a hand around his shaft again, stroking him in the way he showed her, and this time her lips touch plant a sweet kiss on the tip.]

(At least she isn't face-to-face with a daunting, enormous cock. It's just average, thank God for all involved. His eyes shut even more, eyebrows nearly touching as he allows himself to concentrate on the feeling of tauntingly warm lips upon the tip. It took all the self-control he has not to buck his hips when the groan left his mouth, breathing heavy as he caressed her scalp.

All he can do is encourage in a situation like this.)

[Can you imagine poor, sweet Belladonna just abruptly getting smacked in the face with an impressively meaty cock? This would be a very different thread.

In any case, she's much less intimidated by its size and more just by what it is and what it means to be so intimate, but Izaya's movements and noises keep her feeling courageous, and her heart hammers as she dares to use her tongue. It doesn't quite occur to her to try and put him in her mouth, so instead, for now, she slowly moves her mouth over his head and down his shaft, her hotter, wetter kisses dancing around the movement of her hand.

All the while, she keeps her eyes up at his face, watching for any indication that she should stop what she's doing.]

(It doesn't occur to her and he doesn't plan to tell her. It's one of these things that is just much more fascinating to watch her figure things out herself, and he's sure that if not today, eventually she'll have the brilliant idea to patent a blowjob... Given that she came up with this herself.

No reason to tell her to stop, not for a good while as he encourages her with his noises, guiding her with the hand that rests in her head. What's most important, though, is that after a while, he'll breathe in to let her know a very important thing.)

We better get going, or else I'll end up finishing just with this.

(And he sure doesn't want to cum on her face on a first time, please, this is a Denny's.)

[Still holding onto his erection with one hand she looks up, backing her face up. There's a startled look on her face as she repeats his sentiment.]

F-finish?

[A look of recognition passes over her and she lowers her voice, as if they could possibly be overheard. That it even mattered.]

You mean...an orgasm?

(How is it that she's embarrassed to say orgasm while literally holding a dick in her hand is beyond him, but well, that's part of the reason why he just loves the unpredictable!

It even twitches a little, just because of the wave of excitement that ran through him.)

Exactly. Had I given you one, we could keep going, but if I happen to have one too soon, we'll have to wait a little bit.

[Belladonna, having yet to have a proper orgasm, herself, of course wonders to herself about it. A part of her thought that maybe she had one, already? Obviously, she doesn't know the difference.

Well, he's the expert, so she's just going to follow his judgment.

Releasing her personal hold on him, she stands up so she can plant a sweet kiss on his cheek.]

What shall I do, now?

(Definitely not the expert. This could be the last time Izaya ever has sex in his entire life, and he'd be completely fine with it. It wouldn't make a difference for him at all... And his experience is not so vast at the end of the day...

His nose gently caresses her skin before he guides her to lie down, a kiss pressed to her jaw as she does so. Getting on top is quite easy to do right afterward, back to letting his lips work on making her feel comfortable and relaxed. It's all a matter of allowing her to become comfortable with each step of the way, so now that he has gotten so with cock, he decides to join all knowledge by taking his hand to position the tip against her clit to rub.)

Edited 2021-06-16 21:46 (UTC)

[The intensity of Belladonna's arousal had subdued into a dull throb as she had taken the time to explore Izaya's body, but it's quick to come back as soon as he lays down over top of her. The head of his dick touches her enflamed clitoris and the teasing escalates the pacing of her breaths. Her face flushing harder, she runs her hands through his hair, wanting to keep him close, closer.

What starts as a physical desire moves rapidly toward what begins to feel like a deep-seeded ache inside of her, hips straining up off the bed. Even though she doesn't have any words she can think to express, her body does the talking, urging him to plunge inside.]

(With how her body is reacting, and how her breathing is intense, Izaya knows that the longer he teases her, the more reactions he's going to get - does Bella run out of patience, he wonders? Ah, but it's better to check that another time.

Right now, he's more focused on taking a deep breath and inserting his cock, little by little, careful not to tear or to hurt the girl beneath him. Mostly, he's thrusting solely the head inside, until he feels confident enough to push all of himself in. A gasp escapes him when he finally makes it, and he takes a moment to look at her, blushed and yearning for him. Izaya pushes any thoughts aside, for now, distracting himself by kissing her lips as he ultimately builds up a pace.)

[Izaya will, of course, at least get to enjoy the sight of Belladonna's full reaction. A myriad of different micro-expressions cross her face, from involuntary surprise to pleasure to mild pain. It doesn't hurt, not really, after all the work he put in to prime her body for this very moment, but the sensation is so different from all the previous ones, even from his fingers, that she can't stop herself from instinctively balking at the intrusion.

That said, as much as her body tenses, it quickly relaxes again, and Belladonna lets out a moan caught halfway between shock and pleasure. He kisses her, and she reciprocates, her arms wrapping around his back to encourage the way their bodies slide together, overcome by the intimacy of the shared experience.]

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